Another Rhema of Love

"That farewell kiss which resembles

 greeting, that last glance of love

which becomes the sharpest pang of sorrow."

~George Eliot

These words describe my feelings as my husband drove away 17 days ago to go to work, and these words are also how my husband felt.

The sharp pang in my heart had never been stronger, I was shocked and overwhelmed in how I was feeling.

Love is an incredible emotion, so powerful and real.

On the day my husband left I wrote a post and Jo left a comment stating "God has a reason for this separation look for what he wants you to learn" and these words prompted my heart to just yield to my God even more and allow Him to change me, grow me and mould me ~ again!

We all experience separation from a loved one through this journey on earth and God is in control of all that takes place and I believe He wants to use that time of separation to draw us closer to Him, He wants us all for himself at times, so we know that He is truly the one we can and should rely on every moment of the day.

Only Jesus can heal the brokenness, blow away fears and restore our lives.

So have I really learnt anything in the last 17 days?

Have I really received a rhema (a word or an illustration God speaks directly to us, and it addresses our personal, particular situation) that has diffused change and understanding in my life?

One thing I know is I love my husband. You might think, well you did marry him, and yes I did, but marriage and love can die just like a plant will die without the watering and nurturing so love will die also.

To keep love alive you have to work hard at it as I am sure you know and I had heard these words a hundred times over as well, but this latest separation from my husband has given those words a new more in depth meaning.

For you to truly understand what I am talking about I am going to be completely honest and transparent with you right now, before he left we had only been back home from our trip down to Geelong, Vic for three weeks and in those three weeks David & I didn't spend any time together. We were both home, we would walk past each other, eat dinner and say the odd word but we didn't replenish and water our marriage as it needed.

In the last few days before David was leaving I was trying to get him to stop working and spend time with me. You see I thought he was the one not making time for me, he was busy out in the garden, doing washing, spending time with the kids and making phone calls but I was busy schooling the children, blogging, on face book, cleaning and cooking. 

When David drove away I felt dry and thirsty not in my spirit but in my marriage.

"And ever has it been known that love knows not

 its own depth until the hour of separation"

~ Khalil Gibran

The Lord revealed to me the moments that I had missed to water our marriage, I could of been down in the garden with my husband (he did ask me a dozen times), but I didn't go, I could of switched the laptop off when he sat next to me for 5 min (he did say he felt like I was ignoring him) but I couldn't see.

Being apart has proven that love strengthens. God has opened my eyes and my husbands eyes more to the reality that our love will die if we don't nourish it.

So I thank the Lord for teaching me in these last 17 days just how important it is to keep my ears open to hear when my beloved is calling and my eyes open to see when he is taking the time to water our marriage.

My husband, beloved, lover and friend returns home in a few hours.

  What greater thing is there for two human souls that
to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other...

to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories.

~ George Eliot