It's been Grace like rain!

Last week as I was reading my daily bible read, I was in the gospel of John reading about the resurrection of Lazarus. The Lord was touching me so much with how Jesus felt when Martha and Mary came running out to Jesus so distressed about the death of Lazarus -

John 11:32-35 (New King James Version)

32 Then, when Mary came where Jesus was, and saw Him, she fell down at His feet, saying to Him, “Lord, if You had been here, my brother would not have died.”

33 Therefore, when Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who came with her weeping, He groaned in the spirit and was troubled. 34 And He said, “Where have you laid him?”

They said to Him, “Lord, come and see.”

35 Jesus wept.

The word was standing out like 3D and the holy Spirit was showing me that even though Jesus knew that He was going to raise Lazarus from the dead, He wept and cried because of the pain the girls were going through. Jesus felt there pain and grieved with them. He revealed to me again just how much love, compassion and mercy He has on us and how He grieves and intercedes (Romans 8:34) when we are experiencing pain in any sort of way.

Well, little did I know that God was preparing me for a situation that I never thought would happen. On Sunday afternoon about 1:30pm it was just Joshua (my 9yo son) and I at home as my husband, Grace, my niece (20), Mum, Dad, Auntie Betty and Uncle Geoff were all out on a bike ride. I was laying on the couch when I started to bleed, a lot, and I began to cry and panic, so I rang the doctor instantly and she told me that I either was going to miscarriage or I'm just bleeding.

I panicked for no one was here, so I phoned my very close cousin and her husband who prayed for me and just helped so much by listening. I had forgot that the lady staying in the water view apartment of our B&B was there, but Joshua didn't, and he ran out and asked for her help, she is a lovely Christian lady and I just Praise God that she was there and for my son acting so responsibly.

It wasn't too long that David came home after my cousin Jen and her husband phoned her parents who were on the bike ride, and soon I was surrounded by all my beautiful family.

The bleeding didn't stop.

2:30am Monday morning I woke up, and began to experience the first lot of pain, it wasn't too bad at this stage, but David woke up at the same time. For the next hour I began to lose lots of blood clots and now I knew what was happening.

At about 6:00am I started having real intense pain that caused me to groan and within 20 minutes our little baby Benjamin had come. My husband was able to take him from me and went and looked at him and that's how he discovered the baby was a boy.

I sat in the bathroom for 10 minutes just crying before the Lord.

I saw my Jesus crying with me for the pain we were having just like He showed me in the book of John, it was at that moment that I realised why Jesus showed me that scripture.

My Father in heaven had everything planned with my beautiful niece staying with us and my beautiful Auntie & Uncle staying with my Mum & Dad.

My Mum is such an amazing woman of God and I am so blessed to have her in my life. She has been here everyday, just helping with housework, fellowshipping with us and just blessing us. I love her dearly.

I felt so blessed to have everyone around all day that Monday, and I had the pure peace in my heart that can only come from Jesus, He loves us so much.

David, Joshua, Dad and Uncle Geoff took baby Benjamin and buried him in a beautiful spot by the river. We know He will grow in heaven and on that wonderful day we will meet him again.

Tuesday morning I awoke to a chorus of a song playing over and over in my mind -

"Hallelujah, Grace like rain, falls down on me, Hallelujah and all my stains are washed away"

When I got out of bed, I went and had a look outside and it was pouring rain. The Holy Spirit touched me so deeply and that is what His amazing Grace is like - rain that continues to fall. It is still pouring rain right now.

Through this journey on earth we all experience grief and pain in one way or another and we will continue until we are perfected in heaven.

But like the apostle Paul wrote in 2 Corinthians 12:9 -

'And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.'
 
It's during these times in our lives when we experience the Lords amazing Grace more stronger than ever.
 
Here is the song if you would like to listen to it!